Cosmic light dance

As the long dark night slowly slipped behind the dawning new age, awakening our spiritual landscape with its transformative light, our collective consciousness began drifting away from religion, receding from its empty rituals, as something authentically alive and powerfully creative emerged. 

This great awakening is evolving us rapidly. It is vibrant with a new hope for humanity and the entire planet with its abundant outpouring of spiritual enlightenment, imparted by those who have left the mainstream's ungodly pursuit of money, power and control to embrace the great Other, the ultimate and only real divine presence, who, like Shakespeare's rose, "would by any other name smell as sweet."

Those many bright souls who are birthing this great awakening have been blessed with the wisdom and courage to transcend the ordinary, to simply walk away from the status quo and never look back. While we are all collectively evolving spiritually in our own ways, they are well ahead of the herd. I admire them and am grateful for their tireless and wonderfully inspiring work.  

As much as I would love to join their new vision of sacred journey, I find myself still firmly rooted in the original faith, the first light of Christianity - which isn't Christianity as we know it today - in pursuit of something even brighter - a bigger fish, I guess. In my heart I have always felt the answer to our common human condition and all the terrors of this global dark night of the soul in which our world is tragically immersed, is still in that beautiful man of Nazareth. 

We are all on a journey individually and collectively and everyone has their own story. Even where we are right now, this very minute, on our spiritual journeys is not where we'll be in a week or a year from now. The Spirit is alive and moving, evolving everything as it continues to create, always calling us into a cosmic dance, and a greater awakening.

To experience this evolution consciously, is to be lifted up and out of this heavy dimension. It is to see with the mind another reality, another dimension, even if we don't see it with our eyes. Something in us acquiesces to its ultimate existence. It is simply life which is a kind of creation machine, yet of absolute, ultimate being, intelligence, and total consciousness. It may be hard to understand. It's like trying to contain the whole ocean in a tea cup. We can't grasp the whole ocean of Spirit, or our creator, but we can understand what it is in a small dose, which is us.

It seems now - in historical hindsight - the Church's hierarchy, right from the moment it became an established orthodoxy, only had part of the truth. I honestly think they didn't know it because the rest of the story was buried in the scriptures in code and they only had what had been passed down to them. Each generation led us further and further away from the whole story. Without the whole story, the church limped along, vaguely grasping the real message and too often stumbling off the road into some dark stuff. It seems it needed to control the masses due to an unacknowledged, perhaps even unconscious, sense that it was incomplete. It's as if you were to attempt to prepare a chef's finest recipe, but left out a key ingredient. The end result would be a failure. So, when the church's message didn't taste right to me I felt compelled to move on in search of the rest of the story. 

I returned to the sacred scriptures, poured over them and read everything I could until I stumbled across several interesting ideas. I realized as we evolve, mature and ascend spiritually in our current process of awakening, the old stories seem to make sense in another way, a new way, even while all the old interpretations are still there. It seems they are alive in a new way and speak brilliantly to every level of spiritual development we're on.

If someone is new to the faith, they can be read literally. Later, when you're able to see more, you'll find a deeper meaning, a mythic truth. Then, there's sheer mystery and awe as you discover patterns and codes and hidden hints of something else. When you discover that, you've found the entrance into the kingdom, the door, the narrow gate. It is truly a case of when the student is ready, the teacher appears.  The teacher is there all the time, it is we who can't see him. As our eyes adjust to the light, we can slowly make him out.

I read and reread the scriptures and other resources to understand the hints which I was finding with the help of several awesome scholars and authors.* They suggested there was something originally known that the gospel writers wanted to hide but not hide completely. They obviously wanted to preserve and protect it. So they hid it.  It seems the early Christians were good at hiding important writings, with the hope one day they would be found. 

The gospel writers' task then, while under Roman persecution, was to tell the story on a simple level to preserve it but with clues and deeper messages for those "with ears to hear." By hiding the sacred message through codes, gematria and hints, they'd hoped the Romans wouldn't catch on but that we would. 

In the centuries that followed persecution, when the gospels were translated from the Greek, Hebrew and Aramaic into Latin, the gematria simply didn't translate, and was lost to us from then on. Evidently, the later church fathers in the third century didn't know about the hidden messages either so the other half of the story remained lost throughout history. Later scholars knew there was some kind of code in the gospels, but only recently were they able to crack it by decoding the gematria with a sophisticated computer system. 

It's been like a treasure hunt, finding clues and piecing stories, myths and legends together and matching them with the hints and the gematria to bring into focus something entirely different from the church's version.  

Typically the historical significance sometimes doesn't matter, rather it's the essence and meaning of those myths that matters. But, in the case of Mary and Jesus the historical truth about their relationship had to be discovered, and assembled to complete the picture, so we could receive and allow it to change us. 

I found what I'd been looking for at an intersection of ancient Jewish theology, decoded gospels, gnostic legends of Mary in southern France, mystical spirituality, and sacred geometry - all of which came together to bring into focus one single realization. 

The picture that is emerging is profoud, beautiful, passionate and powerful.Their love is a perfect reflection of God's reign which is the perfect integration of the masculine and the feminine. The male and female cosmic energies melded together with a powerful divine love forms a unit of God's kingdom, a new Jerusalem. They are the key to understanding the ultimate wedding of God with your own soul and the integration of your own opposing differentiated aspects to bring wholeness.

The new picure offers a glimpse into another world, a kind of new Garden of Eden and a new Adam and a new Eve. They were like gods living among us and were also in another dimension, loving, living, dancing as the Spirit moved within them, sharing, ecstatically enraptured in just being, radiating sheer love, breatless and spinning.  It was about them and it was about us. Their love conveyed our worth, taught us and called us to love as they loved, healed our world-weary souls, set our hearts free of the many burdens that block our ability to love, that reduce our sense of value, diminish our spirits, and keep us locked in this shallow world and feeling separated from God's divine love.

They were a light dance with shekinah wisdom and divine love moving between them, drawing them higher into even more elevated levels of consciousness.They became one with the heartbeat of the universe and they invited us to the dance. He said, "we played the flute for you but you would not dance."

Some have said the "Song of Songs" describes their relationship.  It certainly seems so. It is such a close replica of their story. It is so obvious, why didn't we see it before?  Now, that we see it, what does it mean to the human condition?  How do we unpack it in a relevant meaning. That's for another blog posting, but it seems clear the problem in our world is that we are unable to realize our value and our potential. We are enslaved to our world's limiting belief system, ages of woe and worry, all cold bedfellows. We do not know how to rise up in the glory of God's love. We don't know how to love on an ascended level.  

Sure, we think we know how to love and we fall in love and we get married, but so much of our love language and love culture isbasically an emotional hormonal reaction, almost to the scent of another human more than a soul connection.  For someone who has experienced real love on a soul connection, he or she knows that love is beyond sex and leads the lovers into another dimension, other worlds. That kind of love can and will last a lifetime. 

There is something more profound about their love that can change the world once we accept it and feel it. The call is now, as it always was, a call to enter into a sacred cosmic love affair with the divine Other, and love as they love. 

They can lead you into the same experience and on into the reign of God. However, they must be allowed to take you up to their level, not we reduce them down to ours. They came to redeem us, but we killed him and exiled her by reducing His queen to a whore. With that condemnation, we kept these lovers apart. We need to reunite them and allow them to rise up together, hand in hand, and return to their ecstatic joyful cosmic light dance. Then, we also will be set free to join in the same love dance with the great divine beloved.  

* Thanks to Margaret Starbird for her profound insights that are resonating with mine.